TP91Dz….

(T.P.91.D) The Past 91 Dayz…
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When iThink baq oN The Past 91Dayz(TP91D) Ov Ma lyf, wit its many Issues, my mind/Subconscious Keeps takin me baq to tha opening line ov Charles Dickens’ classic novel.

“It was the best of times, it was the worst of times, it was the age of wisdom, it was the age of foolishness, it was the Season of belief, it was the season of Doubt, it was the season of Light, it was the season of Darkness, it was the spring of hope, it was the winter of despair”
– Charles Dickens,aTale oF Two Cities

Tha Past 91Dayz(TP91D) wer dayz Ov many contradictions 4me, & truth be told, D gr8st contradiction iFound was within myself.

iAv always been something of a “Jack Ov All Trade” Character, Ov Which none of which is truly me. iN No tym has this been more obvious than this past 91Dayz oV ma lyf, Cos iLived this dayz More Reckless and disjointed than ever B4 (Xcept April 2010 Obviously) but somehow at peace with myself for iAv come to terms with what iYam.

Seeing Hw Tha Past 91Dayz “TP91D” was such aDismal Tym 4me, iYam Xtremely glad Dat TP91D Did Nt even nearly meet the poor standard set by its predecessor. However, it did make several attempts. On the other hand TP91D was full of blessings 4Me & iWuld be the worst sort of fool not to count them.

iT was the best of times.

iFell iN love During TP91D… & iHad quite aNumber of Lovely ppl Fall iN Love wit me. Der were Lots of great moments many of which iWould Never 4get.

iT was the worst of times.

The Person iFell iN Love Wit Did Nt feel the same way abt me… & iDid Nt feel d same abt d Odas that loved me. Sadly, Sometimes iWish iDid.

iT was the age of wisdom

iFound Out a lot of new Tinz iN aVery short time + iYam still oN Ma Journey to Attain Some piece oF paper iN tha Uni 2tell Me Hw Smart iYam / supposed to be.

iT was the age of foolishness

Dis is something no piece of paper can tell me cos iT Always say “A” or “B” or “C As Ma Grade iN Xzamz but iAv learned 2Accept iT Has aFact that ————-» My Poor Memory iS gradually becoming more & More of an issue. But I’m Glad my ability 2Reason remains Undiminished. Also, iFinally realized Dat iWill Never knw as much as iYam xpected to. Or want to,

iT was The Beginning Ov Belief

iRealized Dat iDo Believe iN God More Dan iActually Care are 2Admit + for some reason, iYam very reluctant 2Talk abt Ma Faith Bcos iLike 2pretend 2B aGuy oF strict Logic. Bt Wen Der Was No Bar, I know whom I call to for help.

iT was aSeason oF Disbelief

iCan count on my fingers, D number of tym iWent 2church During TP91Dz. iYam Constantly Amazed @ the ability Ov ppl 2Twist religion 4 their own agendas. Sadly, iAv No faith left iN Most oF D religious structures So iNstead iChose 2 Focus oN Charity & Karma.

iT Was D season oF Light

iMade Many New Friends During TP91Dz, Nd iAv Learned loads oV New Tinz Abt Ppl, Friendship, Character Nd Trust cc: @ShigoD, @Sasha_Pee @oYeMyKke @Demola & @loyalSimeon.. Some Ov Good & Impressive Character While Some…. *Sigh* (S/o to Ma #IB Connect @Papi, @GodSon & @DarkMayor Yu Guyz Are OnPoint). iTraveled 2Many New Places, iHad several New Experiences, Nd Opened Myself Up more Dan iEva Had. S/o To “Lightz” Dat helped me Navigate my way Through Dark tymz cc: “RYT” GodGoMakeYouBigger..!!!

iT Was The season Ov Darkness…

iRealized Dat Asides Ma Folks, Ma Sisterz And aFew Frndz Dey Are Nt loads Ov Ppl That Can Be Trusted completely… The Rest Are just Emotional Minefield oV Love, jealousy. Hate, Rage And Hidden Agendas Dat iYam Nt Eager 2Navigate…Maybe Cos iDnt Really Give a Toss..

iT Was  The Season Ov Hope

iSpent Many Days During TP91Dz Hoping For Many Thingz, Some Ov Which iEventually Received Nd iYam Xtremely Gr8ful 2God For. Nd Also Some Ov Which iYam Still Hoping/Waiting For…

iT Was aSeason Ov Despair… *sigh*

Was iT Really..? No iT Wasn’t. No iT Fuckinq Wasn’t. Bcos iNever Really Lost hope. iFelt Overwhelmed, Sad, Angry, Frustrated, Stressed, Buh iNever Sank iNto Despair & iDoubt iEva Will. TP91Dz Tried Really Hard To Break Me, Wer Death & Desolation Tried & Failed, Stress & Uncertainty Tried Even Harder. The Troubles @Home Combined Wit D Cruel, Constant and Consistent Stress oV Labors Imposed oN Me By Ma Uni Combined Wit d Ups & Downs oV My Emotions All Conspired 2Break Me. Bt Dey Failed…. 😀
I’m Nt just Writing Dis 2Make Dis Seem Lyk aStory Wiv aHappy Ending… Dos Dat Knw Me, Knw Wat iMean. I’ve Gotten Most Ov Wah iWanted Out oV TP91D

iYam Glad 4 D Life iAv & d ppl Dat Wer Part Ov iT Dis Year. iWuld Mention Ur Names iF iWere AnyLess Ov aSecretive Person. But D Truth iS Yu Already Know Yourselves. You especially. iThank God For All oV Yu Even Though iCannot Understand Wat Manner Ov Madness Makes You Want 2be Friends Wit Me. I’m Glad 4 DMusic, DWords, My Sisters, DStories, DMovies, DBreasts,dVodka, DFriends,D Suffering & dSun.

So Out Wit D Old & iN Wit D New, For Ma Closing Line, iUSe tha Same Book By
-Charles Dickens’

 “iT iS aFar, Far Better Thing That iWill Do, Than iAv Eva Done; iT iS aFar, Far Better Season Dat iGo To Dan iAv Eva Knwn”
-Charles Dickens’
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